Pic + video from Helen Torsgården: http://blogg.veckorevyn.com/hiilen/

Good morning!

So after watching Helen's self-tanning tutorial/info video I decided to order my own self-tanning kit from St. Tropez to make a first impression/first try/experiment video once it arrives haha! I have never self-tanned before and honestly I'm hooked on that tan after doing my spray tan a few weeks ago. Seriously loved it so much, so now I thought I could try to do it myself :D If nothing else it'll be a fun video I'm sure!

The plans for today are still not set... Hmm... I'm going to film a video but the question is what. I'm sure I'll think of something! Hope you guys have a good day. xx

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​Today's video is about body image and the struggles of not feeling perfect in a world that spends most of its time telling us we're not, to sell products of different sorts.

And right away I need to address the comments saying that "I don't know the struggle of not fitting in". And this pisses me off so fucking much. No, I am not overweight. I don't know the struggles of someone who is overweight. But can you not just fucking respect my feelings and understand that life is not a competition of who's got it worse??

On my YouTube channel I talk from my perspective about stuff I know and stuff I feel. Is that really so difficult to grasp? I'm making an effort to share how I feel about myself and show that we all struggle, big or small, people are always fighting their own battles. And just 'cause you see me in a certain way doesn't give you the right to judge me and say that my struggle is meaningless, just like I have no right to say that you're not struggling at all with whatever weight you're at, or whatever else is on your mind.

The whole point of this video is to inspire people in a positive way to see the beauty in themselves. And I cannot sit and say that without sharing my own shortcomings and feelings on the subject. I can't sit there and preach about loving yourself when I struggle with it as well.

As always, if you don't like it don't watch it.



Hey guys!

I'm currently on my way to Stockholm for a day of fun.

Had the WORST wake up call this morning. At 7.20 am they started drilling concrete right under our apartment. Rascal was scare and my head was pounding. They drilled for TWO whole hours. It was insane. Is that even legal?? At 7 in the morning?? And period cramps on top of everything of course...

Anyway. Going to pop in at my YouTube network for a visit before heading to a meeting with the rest of the jury for the competition I've mentioned earlier 'Young Courage'. We're going to pick a winner and talk about stuff. Fun fun :)

Hope you guys had a better start to the day than me. xx



Hey guys! I found this list of questions made to "get to know each other better" so basically you're supposed to answer these questions with another person and ask each other etc, BUT Imma just do it myself. If you see some numbers missing then that's 'cause they were irrelevant to this format haha. Enjoy!

1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?

Mick Mars, Ke$ha, Obama (seems like a fun guy??) and David Beckham.

2. Would you like to be famous? In what way?

Yes, I'm working on it haha! But not for the sake of just being "famous"... That doesn't really hold any value to me itself. I want to be successful and helpful, and to be as helpful as possible you need to reach out to as many as possible, and the more you reach out to the more successful you are, if that makes sense? So "fame" kinda comes with what I strive for.

3. Before making a phone call, do you ever rehearse what you're going to say? Why?

Hmm, not really. I used to, but I'm slowly but surely getting rid of my phone phobia. I'm not a fan of speaking to people I know on the phone still, but "business calls" are a lot easier. I just go into my business-mode and then it's less scary.

4. What would constitute a perfect day for you?

So many different kinds... Spending it on the couch with Sonny and Rascal, seeing friends, being in Malmö, a concert... Travelling in general. Yeah there are different kinds for sure!

5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?

Right now haha, listening to an old depressing "break up"-playlist for some reason?

6. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you choose?

BODY!!!!!! Who wants to stay at 30 in their brain and lose all the knowledge and experience you gain with age? What a stupid question haha.

7. Do you have a secret hunch about how you will die?

Haha! Not at all. Haven't given that any thought actually... Hmm...

8. Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common.

A decent balance between maturity and immaturity, no major desire to travel a lot and a dislike of cold cuts.

9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?

My upbringing.

10. If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be?

More openness about feelings/relationships/periods/sex etc! Important stuff to talk about.

12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained one quality or ability, what would it be?

100% self-esteem.

13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?

Oh my lord. I honestly don't know. I mean half the fun of life is not knowing what's around the corner!! I guess I'd like to know if I'm going to have healthy children or not. 'Cause that's not something I wanna gamble with...

14. Is there something that you've dreamt of doing for a long time? Why haven't you done it?

Difficult. I've always dreamt of living in California, if not permanently at least for some time. But it's just something I feel like I've "grown out of" because of all circumstances. I don't feel like I'm missing out on my dream, I just don't want it as much anymore... Although listening to Lana Del Rey always makes me wanna pack my bags heh.

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

Blergh boring questions. I guess finding myself is a decent accomplishment.

16. What do you value most in a friendship?


17. What is your most treasured memory?

Maybe when Sonny told me he loved me the first time ^_^

18. What is your most terrible memory?

Hmmm... I don't have a lot of terrible memories to be honest. But I guess having to hold back tears at work 'cause I didn't want to be there and Sonny had just gotten on the train to go home and life sucked so hard.

19. If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why?

Not really. I'm pretty much doing everything I feel like doing right now. I can't live based on what's going to or not going to happen in one, five or ten years.

20. What does friendship mean to you?

Helping each other out, listening to each other's problems, having something in common?! Haha!

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life?

Well love and affection is everything in a relationship but beyond that it doesn't affect me too much.

22. Alternate sharing something you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five items.

Another one I'll just skip haha.

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people's?

I don't know, I mean there was nothing at all wrong with my childhood but if it was happier that most other people's I don't know? I just know I was happy with it haha. And I guess my family is kinda close but not in a "WE'RE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER WOOOOOOOO" kinda way...

26. Complete this sentence "I wish I had someone with whom I could share..."

...my lazy days on the couch.

27. If you were going to become a close friend with your partner, please share what would be important for him or her to know.

I don't get the questions. Is he my partner? Or are we just friends? If we're just friends they better know that I won't talk to you 24/7 and I won't answer if you write me 24/7. Don't be clingy.

32. What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?

Anything like rape, abuse etc etc... Should be obvious.

33. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven't you told them yet?

Nothing really. I hope my friends, family and Sonny know how I feel. :)

34. Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be? Why?

Nothing material is that valuable to me to be honest. Everything meaningful is documented online in one way or another and stuff on my phone/computer can be replaced haha. So I guess I'd save my... Uhhh... Whatever I'll just save my phone.

35. Of all the people in your family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why?

All of them!? I don't want anyone to die. Can't pick one over another.