Bzzzz bzzzz! Back at it again after a very very long day. Might tell y'all more about it later in life but anyway! Doing another beetle today to match the one we did yesterday :D I love how they turn out. The black looks really cool, especially since the insects are so cool themselves haha. So now I'll have two matching little guys under my knees.
Heading home tomorrow. Feels good but it's been fun to be here, as always! ^^
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So there, now I'm ready to get into this stuff haha. I'm basically just going to go through the order of my tattoos and what they "mean" and everything like that, once and for all! Or I'm sure I'll make more posts like these in the future with updates and such, but for now I'm good to go.
The first tattoo I got when I was 19, was the ship on my right thigh. I had already planned that both my thighs were going to match so I had two appointments booked, one month apart. So I got my ship, took 7 hours and the pain was fine. Then I got my lighthouse a month later which took about 6.5 hours and that was fine as well. They are based on the lyrics to "If My Hears Was A House" by Owl City (Circle me and the needle moves gracefully, back and forth, if my heart was a compass you'd be North. Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall, wherever you go, if my heart was a house you'd be home). And it's basically dedicated to family and friends, none named none forgotten (or permanently named on my skin haha!).
The third tattoo I got was about four months later and it was the eagle on my lower left arm. It has the lyrics to Asking Alexandria's Run Free on it (Let your heart soar with the eagles). I had in January seen them live for the second time and it was the best night of my life so far 'cause I got to go up on stage and Danny complimented my eyes and then he requested to see me after the gig (their merch guy grabbed me and was like "The band wants to see you") and I was so starstruck and fan-girling and jesus christ. This was the start of what would become an insane string of events hahaha, but anyway! Run Free is one of my favorite Asking songs so I got it done. BUT I didn't get it as a "OMG I LOVE ASKING"-tattoo, I got it 'cause they lyrics meant something to me. Kind of like a "rise above" thing.
The next tattoo I got was 4 months after that. It was my absolute favorite as well - Mick Mars! To this date it's the most incredible portrait I've ever seen and I'm so happy that it's mine! It took 8 hours. Pecka at Zoi Tattoo is a magician and I can't wait for him to do my Vince tattoo as well. Anyhow, I got Mick 'cause Mötley Crüe is my favorite band and he is my favorite member (together with Vince). And there is a big reason behind me choosing this image as well, rather than an image from way back when. I like Mick because of who he is and his view on life. But also because of the way he handles his illness and doesn't let it stop him from doing anything at all. I didn't get Mick because of the persona he had in the band. I got it 'cause he as a person is very inspiring to me. I also chose this picture because his eyes are not visible, and that was very important to me. In my opinion, eyes are very personal and I do not know Mick personally. I wouldn't feel comfortable having his eyes on my body for that reason. Maybe it doesn't make sense to you but that's how I think. When I get Vince done, I want an old picture 'cause I love Vince's persona! I love the happy go lucky crazy surfer turns glam rock kid with blonde hair and pink scarves. So I don't want a recent picture to portray that (obviously).
One year later I decided to start my Game of Thrones inspired sleeve. I'm not completely finished with it obviously, but we've gotten some things done anyway! The sleeve is based on the faith of the seven, or the seven gods which are the Crone, the Mother, the Maiden, the Father, the Smith, the Warrior and the Stranger. They all represent different things, and even though I'm not religious or spiritual at all, I believe that these seven things are what makes a strong human being and I just love the way they describe it in the books. I have the Mother and the Warrior left and then a bunch of fillers to tie it all together. The lady is the Maiden, the lantern is the Crone, the anvil is the Smith, the grim reaper is the Stranger and the scale is the Father. I can't really remember how long the different ones took but about 3-4 hours or so.
After this it took a few months until I did something new, which brings us to about March/April this year. I have been wanting to do my chest for SO long but I've never know what I want to get! It's such a major piece and it will often show, so I really wanted to be 1000% sure about what I was getting. But slowly the idea started forming. I knew that I wanted a stag beetle at the base of my neck. I also knew what style I wanted and found the artist I wanted. I saw that she has an amazing style of making heads/faces and I decided that I wanted that as well. Then I added the flowers and the dragonflies 'cause they're pretty and my mom loves dragonflies so that kinda made me want to get them rather than some other insect haha. I also did not want butterflies at all. This is the first tattoo that didn't have a meaning behind it. It was purely for aesthetic reasons. Needles to say I'm very happy with how it turned out! The lines took 5 hours to do and the shading and colors took 7 hours. It was definitely the worst pain I've experience in my entire life.
About a month or so ago I got my cute little rascal on my lower left arm. Not much to say about it, I just wanted a cute rascal raccoon as an inside joke with my boyfriend and our friend Richard who did it did an amazing job! It turned out just the way I wanted it. It took 5 hours and was the least painful session to date.
And last (for now) but DEFINITELY not least is my stomach tattoo that Ellen made about two weeks ago! Ever since she started tattoing again about a year ago, I knew that I wanted her to do my stomach and that I wanted 100% her style. This was also extremely extremely painful and I almost died a few times but so worth it. I think it took about 7 hours. It doesn't really mean anything, or maybe that I love cats... 'Cause it's a cat skull in the middle haha!
So those are all my tattoos for now! I am definitely getting more but I'm not sure what's next. I think I'll fill my legs up a little now, and try to finish my GoT arm... And get my Vince portrait. THEN it's time for my back. But it won't be anytime soon I'm sure #brokebitch. Hope you guys liked this post! If you have any questions just ask. xx
The first "contact" I had with "nudes" and regular everyday people posting them was, as so many other things, on Tumblr. I never ever took part in that and could never REALLY understand why people would want to post naked pictures of themselves online. Things like "Topless Tuesday" never interested me at all, but I didn't mind that other people did it.
As the years on Tumblr went by nudes and porn and everything in that category was just an everyday thing. For people who don't spend a lot of time on Tumblr/don't spend time on the "tattooed/alternative" part of Tumblr, that probably sounds strange, but for me and many others it's nothing "cray cray" or taboo. It's everywhere and it's not dangerous!
"Should I be hiding my phone screen on the bus?"
It came to the point where I no longer could determine what things on my dashboard were "Safe For Work" and what things were not. A nude-ish picture of a girl - should I be hiding my phone screen on the bus? A porn gif or dick pic flashes by while scrolling... Uhhh... Right. People might think that's weird. Forgot.
With all of this said, however, my own position in all of this hasn't exactly changed even though I've been very desensitized. When I was younger (thankfully) I never considered posting anything "sexy" at all. I just posted pics of my face and that was it.
But one thing that does affect my view on this is that I have a lot of tattoos. And my tattoos are on my skin. So if I want to take pictures like those above, where my tattoos play a part, I have to show my skin. The more skin the better! And that's the bottom line. No, I do not mind posting pictures with a lot of skin, 'cause to me they're not "Hey look at me sexy sexy sexy nude let's fuck what's up?"-pictures (which are perfectly fine too!! Just not what I'm going for). They're basically pictures displaying my body art. I want to show off the skin I've been spending blood, sweat and cash to customize for myself!
"My nipples, ass crack and vagina do not contribute to this AT ALL"
I strongly believe in "never say never", 'cause "never" 5-10 years ago is reality today. But right now in my life I have made the decision never to take fully nude photos just because of what I mentioned above. I don't take these pictures to be sexy or to make someone horny. I take them because I think my art is beautiful. My nipples, ass crack and vagina do not contribute to this AT ALL, and that is why I do not believe they are necessary to expose.
With all of this said, I have absolutely nothing against other people taking and posting nude pictures at all. From porn to art, I 100% respect what people choose to do with their own bodies and I am forever grateful that we have the right as individuals to make these decision for ourselves!
Yay I got the green light to share these images with you guys! So here they are! I'll update y'all when I know when the issue will be out, so you can buy it if you're interested. I know I will hehehe I'm excited. Hope you like the pics! :)
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Here it is! The 7 hour torture result haha. It turned out perfect and hurt like shit. My chest was definitely worse but this was extremely bad as well. Super happy with it, and it was done by my very good friend Ellen, who is basically talented at everything haha! Follow her on Instagram here: http://instagram.com/helveticaneue
It's nice to be home once again. Tomorrow will be filming day 'cause I've got some videos to do. Will probably upload the tattoo video tomorrowwwww! So that's exciting. I'm never really able to film much while getting tattooed since it hurts so bad haha, but at least I got some bits and pieces of it. + Some behind the scene-shots from the photo shoot we did! x