Before & after.
Day of getting them done.
Here we go again.
As a lot of you know I have struggled a lot with my lip fillers haha. For various reasons!
A short recap: The first two times I filled them with 1ml Juvederm, which lasted about 2 months instead of 6-9 months as it says that it "should" last. My body broke down the filler so fast, which obviously is not a good thing. I loved the result but it didn't last.
The third time, a few months (weeks) ago, I went to try a new kind of filler called Voluma. It's way thicker so Angelica said that we probably wouldn't be able to fit 1 ml in my lips since my mouth is so small. But after filling my lips with 1 ml she said that my tissue just "soaked up" the filler, so to get the same result as before we filled them with 2 ml. I loved the way it looked and the size of my lips!
However, it turned out to be way too much for my lips anyway, even though you couldn't see it at the time of filling them. The healing was terrible, I felt like shit for about a week, my entire face got swollen and eventually the filler moved around and healed in a bad way. Major lumps formed and my entire mouth was crooked as a result.
Obviously a lot of people noticed this, and I'm not stupid. I saw that they were crooked. But it was really fucking annoying to read people's comments about it every single day. People telling me "what the fuck have you done to your face" and "too much botox!!!" ... the fuck? Who said anything about botox. Fucking ignorant people haha. I loved the look/size of my lips even after they healed. But my smile was terribly crooked and it didn't feel right...
So today I'm going to get these fillers dissolved and completely removed from my lips. And as you can see in the last picture from today, there's not much filler left in them. My lips just break everything down in a second and it's so frustrating. I LOVE having my lips filled. It makes me feel great and confident and happy! But it's not working for me!
I have pretty much lost hope that any filler would work... all I want is smooth, nice, even lips. But so far that has not happened for me. From now on I'll just let my beautician decide what the best course of action is. It's not her fault that my body is the way it is haha, but she's the professional so she knows if we should just give up or try something else.
However I won't be able to get them filled again today since there will be dissolving stuff in my system. It will probably have to dissolve what I have, and then I can go back and maybe try something new. We'll see... Wish me luck!