As I sit here and wait for a phone call, I thought I'd share some thoughts on a video I watched this morning. One of my favorite YouTubers that I have been following since I started my own channel more or less, Sarah Hawkinson, posted a video today about her self-esteem issues.
Our struggles differ in many ways, but those related to our jobs as YouTubers are very similar. She talks a lot about not feeling good enough, like she's disappointing her viewers, that she is nothing like other YouTubers and so on. And one of the biggest struggles I deal with is definitely comparing myself to others.
But this video that she posted about her insecurities as a YouTuber confirmed what I think we all know deep down - that even those we look up to might be insecure about the things you admire. She mentions how she never felt smart in school compared to her classmates and how she no longer feels smart at all after graduating, and something I appreciate about Sarah is the fact that she is so smart. Isn't that ironic?
I myself often look at other people's success and think that I myself have to be doing what they are doing to be successful, when in reality that's the furthest from the truth. I can of course be successful by doing what I want to do, but when the going gets tough and you don't see the numbers or responses that other people get, you immediately think you must be doing something wrong. And the easiest way to correct it is to start doing what they are doing instead.
Even though this might work in the short run and give you a boost in numbers or even confidence, in the long run you will be stuck working on someone else's goals, dreams and passions and have put your own on the back burner for no good reason.
What I'm trying to say is that comparison to others is never a good idea, and those we all look up to have issues of their own that we don't necessarily understand, see or agree with! Just a little reminder, this Tuesday.
The phone call has still not reached me. It is 45 minutes late. Hmm...