Sometimes I just don't want to be "perfect".
Sometimes I don't want to be a public figure whose every move is scrutinized and has to "mean something" or have a "bigger purpose". Sometimes I just want to be a person, and do what I want to without having to think about all the consequences for my thousands and thousands of followers.
I want to do things to my appearance without having to think about what message that sends to others. I want to eat what I want to eat without being judged for it. I want to post all about my exercise and training without thinking about how it affects others.
It's exhausting to live your life as a personal brand. Maybe I don't want to have a public opinion on something. Maybe I don't have the right answer. Maybe I don't know why I use cruelty free makeup but buy any perfume or shampoo that smells nice. I don't know. I don't have all the answers! I'm not "perfect".
Life would be a lot easier if I didn't have to deal with any of these things. But without all of these things I also would not get to experience any of the positives. And of course, the positives outweigh the negatives 10 times out of 10.
The pressure can become exhausting. And sometimes that results in a blog post. Without any kind of "big purpose". Without strengthening my "personal brand". Without any point to it whatsoever.
I don't have the answers to anything.
I'm just trying to live my life the same way you are. I just have a few more people following my journey.